No, I'm not one of those people that believes 2012 is going to be the end of the world. But here is what it is for me:
1. The first year I have started single since High School. It's not a good feeling. I vary from having panic attacks and feeling like I'm going to pass out, to being so angry that I would rather be single, to being sad an unable to stop myself from crying. The only feeling I wish I had more would be numbness.
2. The year that I am stressed about getting into a Doctorate program. I can't do anything with my degree until I complete graduate school. But it's really difficult to get in.
3. The year that I start taking better care of myself. I've spent the last 5 and a half years so focused on pleasing someone else and making sure their needs were met that I hadn't even realized that mine weren't.
4. The first year that I have to worry about money. My current job isn't paying the bills, but my old job drove me crazy. Which is better, broke or sanity?
My feelings are all jumbled right now. I'm not sure if I want to look at this year as a fresh start, or something to dread. I'm just not certain right now.
